More Love

My first thought was to start off the blog tonight by saying:

"No one should be this loved"

but I have already defeated that statement in my own mind before I could even type the thoughts quickly enough with the keypad.

Instead... I believe:

EVERYONE should be this loved.

The last week, I have had a hard time as I have realized some of the sacrifices I have made in order to make my dreams happen. Mostly, the people in my life that have not been given the attention that they deserve and that I wish I could give... I love what I do. I chose it and I wouldn't take it back for anything. ANYTHING.

But tonight made me feel as though I am doing something right. I know I have many flaws. I know I have many weaknesses. But I felt more love in that room at 3rd and Lindsley tonight than I have felt in a long time. I can't even begin to describe the feeling I had on stage tonight. It was powerful. It was overwhelming. It was incredible.

The room was packed. We played our hearts out. And I don't think I could have felt much better about the show. I know there a few mistakes or little flubs made... but overall none of that mattered.

I didn't necessarily see a strong reaction from the "suits" in the room. Not that you really ever see a strong reaction from them... they see great shows and terrible shows and everything in between every single day.

But for the first time in my life - it didn't matter. I know how far we've come. I know how much we've accomplished all on our own... without a big ole label or financial backer calling the shots. Is it the long way around? YES. Do I feel more proud BECAUSE of that? YES.

So I am happy. I am continuing to grow. My music and my artistry and my voice and my playing continue to get better. I have PLENTY of areas that need MUCH work. But in a creative world that will ALWAYS be the case. YOU, who read this blog and come to the shows have watched me grow and have grown with me. And we will continue to do so in even bigger and better ways than we can even imagine.

Peace. Love. Fiddle.
~natalie